Somedays I still can’t believe my son is real.

Yet here he is, squiggling, giggling and babbling with joy.

And as I stare into his eyes and he smiles back, my chest fills with a flood of wholeness I can’t put into words.

And perhaps - I wonder - if this is what ‘enough’ feels like.

I don’t think I’ve ever met someone who’s outwardly perfect and thought - oh I really like you because you’re perfect.

I think the people I like are all people who seem to have their shit together, but then suddenly make me realise..

Oh you’re also a little weird too.

And since normal is an illusion, I also know everyone is secretly a bit weird in some way.

It’s just a matter of finding out who’s embracing it.

When Jigoro Kano - the founder of Judo - passed away, he had left an unusual request.

He asked his students to bury his body wearing a white belt.

Shoshin is the Zen philosophy of maintaining a beginner’s mind regardless of what we’ve already achieved.

To forever learn, forever be curious, and feel the magic in every moment like the first time.

And with another new year ahead of us, I find there is no better time to fasten my white belt again.